Are you speaking of the joy of being? I've got a story to share.
I got burned by the roots of hell just yesterday. Despite what I wrote earlier that day in one of your blogs about not clinging to a story, my ego latched onto some drama and I got suckered into a story and played out the role in which I was cast.
When I finally came to, I realized how I had closed myself off out of fear. What was going to happen was going to happen anyway, but by fighting it, it chewed me up and woke an even deeper sub-routine of my ego, bent on obfuscating the beauty of what was taking place. I believe what was taking place -- what my ego demanded I fight -- is what you you have previously referred to as the "rendering process".
Either way, yesterday was my day to be rendered. Through the perspective I chose it was a painful fight that I lost and used to reinforce my "story". From another perspective, I could have embraced the pain as part of the Source unfolding through me, which would have still been painful, but would have allowed joy to rise from my awareness of the inevitable process of the universe unfolding.
Again, I did not see this until the moment had passed, but following my meditation this morning I found myself thinking about surrender. It has already provided me with joy.
Patrick, Blessings on your continuing to open to the birthing process we all share. Blessings on your Awareness. Blessings on you each moment. Love to you, George
Hi George,
ReplyDeleteAre you speaking of the joy of being? I've got a story to share.
I got burned by the roots of hell just yesterday. Despite what I wrote earlier that day in one of your blogs about not clinging to a story, my ego latched onto some drama and I got suckered into a story and played out the role in which I was cast.
When I finally came to, I realized how I had closed myself off out of fear. What was going to happen was going to happen anyway, but by fighting it, it chewed me up and woke an even deeper sub-routine of my ego, bent on obfuscating the beauty of what was taking place. I believe what was taking place -- what my ego demanded I fight -- is what you you have previously referred to as the "rendering process".
Either way, yesterday was my day to be rendered. Through the perspective I chose it was a painful fight that I lost and used to reinforce my "story". From another perspective, I could have embraced the pain as part of the Source unfolding through me, which would have still been painful, but would have allowed joy to rise from my awareness of the inevitable process of the universe unfolding.
Again, I did not see this until the moment had passed, but following my meditation this morning I found myself thinking about surrender. It has already provided me with joy.
Patrick, Blessings on your continuing to open to the birthing process we all share. Blessings on your Awareness. Blessings on you each moment. Love to you, George
ReplyDeleteLove to you too, my friend. Thanks!
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