I’ve tried to keep my mouth shut about my cosmogeek endeavors. I’ve seen people’s eyes glaze over. But here lately I’m not keeping quiet. A large part of it is I want to report back before I kick off. The geek speaks! How do I want to present several decades of data? Chronologically would be way too boring (for me, if not for you). How do I download this hard drive?
A definition common among self-identified geeks is: "one who is primarily motivated by passion, indicating somebody whose reasoning and decision making is always first and foremost based on his personal passions rather than things like financial reward or social acceptance…. A person with a devotion to something in a way that places him or her outside the mainstream. This could be due to the intensity, depth, or subject of their interest." –Wikipedia
My entire life has been spent, and no doubt will continue to be spent in looking to comprehend what it means to be a human, what it’s all about.
A fisherwoman told me the other day if you want to catch fish you have to know what they are biting. You match the hatch and the catch, she said. You find the hatch under rocks and logs. It’s not just lying around, she said. You have to look for it.That’s a useful metaphor for what I have been doing in my life as a CosmoGeek: turning over rocks in odd places. Trying to understand the hatch and what it catches, the bait-fish duo, then opening to comprehending the stream and its environs, the astronomical seasons, the astrological signs, the state and extent of the cosmos, and back to who it is holding the pole anyway? And wasn’t I, when it got right down to it, trying to catch myself? Well, I’m getting ahead of myself, but you see how it goes with a geeko mind.
While other boys were exploring four-barrel carburetors and/or the intricacies of the female anatomy, I was looking to comprehend belief systems, thought communities, religions, ways of life, philosophies, superordinates, supra ordinates.
Why, I pondered later, in the ‘70s, did R. Crumb’s Mr. Natural, when asked what it all means, reply “Don’t mean sheeit?” This puzzled me. Was this profundity? Or simply a casual tossed-off expression of a tortured mind? And if it don’t mean sheeit, what does it mean?
No one wished to talk about it.
A definition common among self-identified geeks is: "one who is primarily motivated by passion, indicating somebody whose reasoning and decision making is always first and foremost based on his personal passions rather than things like financial reward or social acceptance…. A person with a devotion to something in a way that places him or her outside the mainstream. This could be due to the intensity, depth, or subject of their interest." –Wikipedia
My entire life has been spent, and no doubt will continue to be spent in looking to comprehend what it means to be a human, what it’s all about.
A fisherwoman told me the other day if you want to catch fish you have to know what they are biting. You match the hatch and the catch, she said. You find the hatch under rocks and logs. It’s not just lying around, she said. You have to look for it.That’s a useful metaphor for what I have been doing in my life as a CosmoGeek: turning over rocks in odd places. Trying to understand the hatch and what it catches, the bait-fish duo, then opening to comprehending the stream and its environs, the astronomical seasons, the astrological signs, the state and extent of the cosmos, and back to who it is holding the pole anyway? And wasn’t I, when it got right down to it, trying to catch myself? Well, I’m getting ahead of myself, but you see how it goes with a geeko mind.
While other boys were exploring four-barrel carburetors and/or the intricacies of the female anatomy, I was looking to comprehend belief systems, thought communities, religions, ways of life, philosophies, superordinates, supra ordinates.
Why, I pondered later, in the ‘70s, did R. Crumb’s Mr. Natural, when asked what it all means, reply “Don’t mean sheeit?” This puzzled me. Was this profundity? Or simply a casual tossed-off expression of a tortured mind? And if it don’t mean sheeit, what does it mean?
No one wished to talk about it.
The enlightened are surrounded by the spiritually dead as well as the physically dead according to Jesus. You can try to revive the former, but you will likely experience much failure. This is the lesson of both Jesus and the Buddha. Failure is not an excuse for inaction, just an acknowledgement that there is no easy way for a buddha to discern who will awaken easily and who will not. If it is difficult for a buddha to succeed in showing people the way to end their suffering, how difficult is it for a semi-awakened person? Should we even care? If we are just a conduit for the Source, should we just be who we enjoy being and let what happens happen. After all, just being a source of Being will awaken people and they will come to you because you awaken them. If we are all God/Buddha/Source/Being, then we will all collectively either decide to awaken or stay asleep, even if some individuals decide to awaken. Or perhaps we have not made the choice yet. Jesus tells us not to worry about such matters. We are loved and taken care of regardless. Just enjoy your embodiment and yourself. You are already free. People will know who you are from your compassion. If they don't, well, you know which group they belong to already.
ReplyDeleteI love a good mystery and I'm thankful that God has given us a doozie to unravel. Looks like George's book is a good read. I'm probably going to buy it : )
ReplyDelete"Don't mean sheeit," and "It's all good" could be two sides of the same coin. Romans 8:8+ applies nicely for me.
We are travelers, together, and some of us will enjoy the ride, some of us will fret, make disturbances, complain or cry. Still, at the end of the mystery we will all see the reveal no matter how we endured the trip.
The experience of being human, for me, has been a series of breaking points. Like a distance runner getting through exhaustion and feeling a second wind. The second wind comes out of nowhere like the Holy Spirit and makes the unlikely possible. I think when you delve into the mystery of anything in our world, it's solar system and the universe or beyond there is nothing to explain the transitions but a second wind like energy. What appears to be the edge of fragility will amazingly expand with the right focus.
We are divinely loved and have been given a gift of experiencing this magical ride. It's our choice what we will see along the way.
George! I am cracking up! Your reference to Mr. Natural?! Oh my goodness! Had to research to understand what the heck you were referencing. Gosh, Geo! You have certainly done a lifetime's worth of research, and seemingly can connect it to everyone in every decade since you began this work of the Warrior. Thanks, Geo!
ReplyDeleteGeorge--You are no geek to me. I love you. "The Hidden Words..." sits by my bedside. I loved Dora Marie's comment, "I'm thankful that God has given us a doozie to unravel." She sure has. I'll take the experience of a loving universe over cynicism any day. I still struggle with the mystery and the anxiety and sometimes even the emptiness, but it is an awesome doozie to be part of. Steve F.
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